Whats Next?

Did I dream this reality? I knew my dreams were coming true, I have watched them and felt them and counted that they are so, measurable dreams, yes I intended and designed that, and that, planned that, all grand ….. I knew that, and I was grateful for that, okay you didn’t let me down.. even now as I quake with fear, shiver with excitement, caught in the light like a frightened rabbit, poised like a bird to fly, whos’ heart suddenly became too heavy and filled up that it can’t fly just now.. how can it be that I can yet dream beyond my wildest dreams, where does this come from? Where did that come from? What happens when your dreams grow larger than your understanding of your Self, where then do you go with your dreams…??? ahhh I get it….. it’s waking up that f’s up your dreams Julia, what else can I dream when I am awake that is not already Real. Oh God where am I Now... what’s next? Here I am. Calm and still and trembling being, seeing and hearing Reality for the first time with strangeness and calm. I surrender.